I was talking to a friend about how much I like to burn my writing.
I don’t burn it all the time, but when it’s something I feel like I need to release, it’s incredibly powerful cathartic ritual. That got me thinking about a wedding I attended two years ago.
I didn’t want to go to the wedding because I had nothing to wear.
It’s humiliating to admit that. It’s such a frivolous, stereotypical girl excuse. I’d been to a million weddings, but nothing quite like this. There were going to be a lot of people there and my social anxiety was running pretty high.
It was silly to think that I was worried looking out-of-place…with a bunch of people who take looking out-of-place very seriously. The wedding was done “burner-style” (think Burning Man) and grounded in the spirit of community, art and self-expression.
When we arrived at the farm in rural Virginia, there were tutus and masks and glow in the dark hula-hoops. There were hot pants and frilly bras — and the women’s outfits were even more eccentric. There were also 60-year-old women in lawn chairs wearing Laura Ashley dresses that would have been right for a church picnic. There was literally nothing that I could have worn that would have been inappropriate. And if I had worn literally nothing, I suspect that would have even been okay, too.
People had set up camp for a week and there was swimming in the river and fire dancing and a tent full of dress-up clothes. There was home-brew and dune buggies and of course, there was a wedding ceremony, in front of a two-story temple that our friends spent months building from scrap wood and fallen trees. We placed paintings, poems and wishes for the couple inside the temple, hanging them from branches.
And after the ceremony, after the “I do” and the kiss – we burned it all to the ground.
There was such joy in watching it burn. It was a profound sense of release.
Of letting go. Of surrendering to life and the inevitable destruction.
Because eventually, everything deteriorates and falls apart and there is no sense clinging to it. Permanence seems comforting but it’s an illusion, and that makes this moment now even more precious. You have to love it with all your heart while it’s here. Because one day, it won’t be. And neither will you.
Letting go means opening up more space for joy. Not even love can survive if you cling too tightly. Love works when you let the other person be who they need to be and love them through it. As my friend said in his vows “I love you and I will love who you become.” Nothing is static. People change.
What a profound statement at the beginning of a marriage.
This wedding was full of joy. The bride wore a purple top. They danced down the aisle and basked in their weirdness. I have always been ashamed of my weirdness, and it did me good to see people so comfortable with theirs. I cried happy tears from beginning to end of the ceremony.
It was just so very them.
We let it all go, and we burned it all up.